Hey you two!! :)

Please, don't feel bad of what you did for me. I know you guys did it because you didn't like seeing me down. I thank the both of you for trying your best, and doing whatever it takes for him to admit it and 'reading this blog of mine'. Hm, we still don't know whether he even bothered to read it or not. Oh well, it's not like it means anything anymore lol....

So yeah, don't say that you're sorry, especially you Cindy. No need to repay me woman!!
I'll be okay, I can live without it. =) Thanks for being supportive - I needed it.

I love you Cindy and Saryna.x

I hate it.

 I hate that you are the reason for my depression. I hate that you won't give me a second chance. I hate that I loved you more than anyone else ever will. I hate that I miss you so much, even when I can have someone a million times better...

Study date in an hour!!!

This is the real me.

x

Morning lovelies.

♥

10. Another picture of you and your best friend.

I don't want to be the girl that..

I fear rejection.

I'm going to the TIC TOC TOUR to see..

Officially missing you. School isn't going to be the same without you.

Anyway...I finally hugged you again. The last time we hugged was two years ago. It felt good to hug you again. I miss your hugs so fucking much. I was happy to have the guts to go up to you to give you a present from me to you. Thanks to my friends for encouraging me to do it. Love you all. I wish I could've gotten something more fancy and expensive - I didn't have time!! Hopefully, I'll get something better for your birthday. I hope to stay in touch with you. I don't want you to forget me. You're a great person, and you should know that.

Missing you already...
Kim xo

7. Best memory you have with your best friend.

Oh, there are too many memories!! I can't name any best one!!! =) All I know is that we shared a lot of good memories.

6. Have you ever fight? Why?

Yes...only once, which was like in kindy! LOL I don't really remember but, I knew we were fighting over something silly, hehe. I'm not going to write a whole story of it, because I can't remember what really happened. Maybe Lynda remembers LOL xo

♥

I kinda miss the bond we shared. I mean, who wouldn't miss that comfortable feeling with a person. Where we could talk for hours about everything, anything and not have a problem with the silence in the middle. Can't forget all the ridiculous stuff we did. Stupid or not, everything was just so fun. Endless nights, real talks, the "remember whens" I remember it all. And it's funny what life does, how it could just give you things and take it away so soon. I really can't get it to my head that you grow distant from people and that good things come to an end sooner or later. But along the way I learned one thing about life; it goes on, you just gotta pick yourself up and learn to keep up.

There it goes again. That heavy feeling in your chest when you don't feel any desire to speak or move. All you want do it close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting. You attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try, you can't seem to connect to anyone or anything. If you had a choice, you'd prefer to be numb, and not feel anything at all if it means the aching would stop. You no concrete idea as to what to do or how to feel - All you know is that you want to be okay.

5. A song you both love and feel identified with.

K - Only Human. We sang this song together, along with our other bff(will mention her name in the latter post) This song was played in a JDRAMA called 'One Litre Of Tears'. I cried in every episode! If you guys haven't watched it yet, I recommend it.

Yeah...I've lost it.

I've lost all the power to be able to sleep peacefully. I've lost the ability to smile without having to fake it. I've lost every sight of happiness I once had. I've lost the strength to tell you I love you. I can't get over you.

I'm pissed and sad.

Year 10 isn't able to attend the YEAR 12 FAREWELL CEREMONY( heard this of simone :( ), because apparently, our year's too dumb? The fuck? At least invite the TWO TOP CLASSES!!! Every year, years 10-11 would be invited to attend the ceremony; what the fuck happened this year? Freaking immature brats this year. Ugh, behave yourselves! Tomorrow, I am going to talk to Mrs Stewart about it, so that she could re-arrange the plans( can 1 person do this to get miss persuaded? :\ ), 'cause clearly, it's unfair. I'm sure most of you would be pissed at the fact that we're not invited...hmph!!!

But then, we could say our goodbyes in the morning...UM NO.NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

Sigh...our year sucks. Those stupid loonys would always have to ruin it for the good ones. I hope, that majority of them would drop out. Yes. I'm serious. I know it will make our year so much better.

♥

We all have that boy; he's the boy we try to pretend we aren't looking for as we make our way to class. He's the boy that we lie about and claim to not care about anymore. He's the boy that gives you the cliche butterflies, complete with the weakness in the knees. He's the boy we're thinking about as we read this. I think every single girl has this boy, and every single girl will remember him forever - he's not the one for us, but he'll always be somewhere in our hearts. ♥

:(

I don't want to hold a pillow,
I want to hold you.♥

4. A picture of you and your best friend.

OLD PHOTO LOL. Ahh, I love her too much.

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE BROTHER KEVIN! MUAH!♥

Yeap! Today he is officially 14!!! Later in the morning, my family and I(including Nate-Anna's bf) are going to go and eat Yum Cha, probably at bankstown(or somewhere else, not sure yet) For his birthday. My sisters already bought him his birthday presents yesterday. I can't remember how much they spent on him, but I'm sure they've spent over $70 LOL. I also got a new CUTE top yesterday at Miss Shop(my favourite clothing brand at the moment-ah!) in Myer. It was $50 but was then cut down to $35 - HOW FREAKING AWESOME IS THAT?! Gotta lurve super saturdays.

And...I just realised that I'm going to be busy today, doing the essay for Ms Hartley, and the science SC mulitple choice questions online for Ms Whittle! And the following week, I'm going to do SC practice - Oh! the joy.

Ack...school will be the death of me.

OH! Just remembered, THERE'S ONE WEEK LEFT OF SCHOOL BABY! WOOHOO! I'm getting excited and pumped to go out and stuff, but, on the other hand, I have to farking study for the SC trials and the actual one. Oh my shiet...care to kill me, anyone?

Have a good sunday everyone! Or not..?
♥

This is to you.

“She thinks about you non-stop, goes to show you’re all she talks about. When she talks to you she always has that bright smile, and truly looks happy. With one hug you make her melt and always leave her with butterflies and at the same time, when she’s upset you're usually the reason. But she refuses to see any flaws in you. And no matter how many people try to tell her different, she believes you're perfect for her, and worth every second of the wait. She’s too scared to tell you any of this because she doesn’t want to mess anything up. And doesn’t want to end up hurt, once more.”

♥

Almost every song reminds me of you...

Good morning all - it's saturday!

3. Write about your best friend.

Lynda, she's my everything. She's absolutely perfect, from head to toe. No one can make me smile with happiness like her. She's brilliant, hilarious, sweet, loving, caring, innocent..the list goes on! There's not one day where we would fight about something pointless. I mean, what's the point? We've been friends for so long and now we're fighting over things that shouldn't be dealt with? Nah, I know we'll never have those situations, well, apart from when we were in kindy, haha Lynda and I had silly arguments.

Lynda is loyal, and I don't want anyone hurting her. She's pretty sensitive, like me, but now I know, she's getting stronger. I really don't like it when people treat her badly - It kills me inside, knowing my best friend has been hurt by heartless, immature people. I would love to introduce Lynda to my friends, the ones I know that will be nice to her, and appreciate her(I think I already figured out the people who might get the chance to see her one day).

Lynda is very supportive - She always has been. She tries her best to comfort me and others when we need her tender loving care!

I love her who she is. I accepted for who she is.
She's amazing, and I don't want anyone to take that away from her.

THIS.

we change
we’re changing
we’ve all changed
things change
people change
things go wrong
and yes, life goes on
we move on
if we dont,time drags us along
so once again
things around us change
we change
for better or for worse
we change
and yes things go wrong
they go wrong everyday
but life goes onit goes on
leaving behind
tears
laughter
joy
time takes all with it
we only have now
not tomorrow
not yesterday
we have now.

I love you with all my butt, I would say heart, but my butt is bigger.♥

2. Since when have you been best friends?

We've been best friends since kindy. It's amazing how our friendship is lasting! I'm very happy. I couldn't have met anyone like her. She's my first, so it goes to show that she's very important to me - Like a sister. I love her so much, I wouldn't want anything to happen to her. She's my everything, and I couldn't live without her here by my side.

Isn't she a cutie?! I la-la-love her to bits.


1. Her cute and easy-going personality
2. Her great sense of humour
3. HER CUTENESS!
4. Her fair skin...
5. Her smile
6. Her quirkiness!
7. Her smartness
8. Her model-material look
9. How she put up with my crap and has always been by my side.
10. There's so much more I love about her. She's like a true sister to me.

Waaaht? I like challenges.

15 Day Best Friends Challenge1. Post a picture of your best friend (male or female) and 10 things you like about them.
2. Since when have you been best friends?
3. Write about your best friend.
4. A picture of you and your best friend.
5. A song you both love and feel identified with.
6. Have you ever fight? Why?
7. Best memory you have with your best friend.
8. Write about an EX best friend; why you stop being bff’s?
9. 10 things you have in common with your best friend.
10. Another picture of you and your best friend.
11. What made you be bff of him/her?
12. Do you have another bff besides him/her?
13. A letter to your best friend.
14. Post one thing about him/her that you only know.
15. Complete this: “My best friend is….”

Can't you see..?

When a girl changes her mood, from a smile to a frown, from a jolly one to a silent one. Then there's only three reasons why she's like that. Either she's jealous, has a problem, or she's hurt. Guys should be more sensitive.

If you've ever been in love,

You'll know the feeling. How you feel insane and time passes so slowly when you're not with them. How they dominate your thoughts and you can almost feel them with you. How you can't help but smile when you know they're thinking about you. How when things aren't going well it drives you insane, and you can't seem to think straight. How when they're not yours, you miss them so much, ad you feel that dull emptiness in your chest. Most of all, you'll know how they're literally everything to you, and nothing can change that.

Day 10: Final 10 words

1. I will prove that I can do anything if I put my mind to it
2. I will always be there for the ones that need me
3. I can never stay angry at him for too long - It just doesn't seem right.
4. I know he doesn't love me, but that's okay with me
5. You're a fake. Where did the real you go?
6. I need to build a bridge and get over it
7. I feel like Maccas.
8. I would love to go to JAPAN and KOREA!
9. I would love to go the BAHAMAS and DUBAI!
10. I didn’t make a mistake with you. You are the only thing I’m positive about. You are not a mistake. Or, you are my sweetest and best mistake. I would never feel sorry for that.

It's amazing.

''It's amazing how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger. You will pass by them without a word. Without a single acknowledging look. This person, who once knew you so well, who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, is now walking right past you, seeing right through you.''

Day 9: 10 ways to win your heart

1. Respect me
2. Make me laugh
3. Accept me for who I am
4. Be honest
5. Be yourself
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

Blah, whatever. There are many qualities I like in a guy.

Don't get your hopes up too high

It's true. I need to take things easily. What I found out today was worst than I expected. I got over it quickly, but I still have so much anger within me. But it's not my fault if THAT person doesn't feel the same way I do for him. It's a sign, to show that I should get over him, and that he's not worth it. I have to keep this in mind.

I need self-control.. When it comes to love(like this) it's hard to resist, because you don't want to hurt that person, but then you think, hey, that person has hurt you countless times, yet you'd still give him another go? Ha, not this time. I know when to stop. I know. I learn from my mistakes. I can't always feel sorry for that person, what has he ever done to me? Absolutely nothing, though he has hurt my feelings...

I need to stop. Now. He has moved on. And now, it's my turn. I've go to show who's boss.

x

BE HONEST.

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked a cigarette.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Dangerously close to being in jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
Had a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Voted for someone on a reality TV show.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you shouldn’t have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Gotten caught having a party while parents were gone away.

Sometimes...

Sometimes I SMILE to hide the pain
Sometimes I LAUGH to hide the sadness
Sometimes I SHOUT to let the pain out
but no matter what I do I just CAN'T hide
the feeling that...
I MISS YOU! :(

Day 8: 10 of your favorite songs

1. Maribelle Anes ft. Lil Crazed - Honestly
2. Aj Rafael - When We Say (Juicebox)
3. David Choi - That Girl
4. Natalie - Going Crazy
5. J Reyez - That's Okay With Me
6. One Republic - Secrets
7. Kinna Grannis - Strong Enough
8. Rhianna - Disturbia Remix
9. Michelle Branch - Breathe
10.Little Red - Rock it

''Dance like the photo's not being tagged,
Love like you've never been unfriended,
Tweet like nobody's following.''

♥

I look at teenagers and I see them dating, breaking up, and dating again. Then I look at my parents , how they manage to love each other and live with each other for so long. I hope one day we could be like that .

UGH. SO P.O!

I hate when people gives out number without asking initially. For fucks sake man, you clearly don't think before you do something!

This is only directed to someone, someone who gave my fucking number to someone i didn't want to give to. I don't know who it is but I'll fucking find out. So fucking pissed.
Whoever it was, I thought I could trust you :(

And lastly, to THE PERSON who constantly calls me and i missed it, and I finally answered last night at fucking 30 past 11, I WAS SO PISSED THAT IT WAS YOU. PLEASE, STOP FUCKING CALLING ME. I AM NOT INTERESTED. DON'T YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND? CLEARLY, YOU DON'T. IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE THIS, THEN GO FOR IT. OUR FRIENDSHIP WILL BE RUINED, AND NO, I WILL NOT FORGIVE YOU AGAIN. I ALREADY FORGAVE YOU ONCE BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, I REGRET IT NOW. YOU'RE ANNOYING, AND EVEN ONE OF MY FRIENDS SAID THAT STRAIGHT UP TO YOU. YOU'RE BACK TO YOUR OLD HABITS AGAIN. OH WAIT, HAVE YOU ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS? SO, FOR MY HAPPINESS, PLEASE PISS OFF.

'In the end, you learn to trust no one.'

When you lose someone you realize so many things. You wish you would've done this or said that. But knowing that you had the chance but didn't do anything, kills you.

Good morning lovely people

Day 7: 10 important people note: IT'S NOT IN ORDER

1. Family - It's counted as one okay?!
2. Lynda
3. Lousie
4. Stephanie
5. Cindy
6. Saryna
7. Lawrence
8. Rebecca
9. Jessica
10. Puja

JUST CAME BACK FROM MY SISTER'S FRIENDS' PHOTOGRAPHY EXHIBITION - I have to tell you, it was FANTASTIC and INSPIRATIONAL. He's an amazing photographer. The canapés was magnifique, it tasted great. I ate quite a few but didn't pig out and stuff okay? Ha. Anyways, I also saw a very very very CUTE GUY there too! I couldn't even take my eyes off him, gosh..he was sooo good-looking! DAYUUM! Is it me or is it getting hot? If only I was brave enough to go up to him and get to know him..TOO BAD, I WAS SHY. But I guess, I was just attracted by his sexiness. Oh well. I hope we 'randomly' see each other again, though it's likely impossible but who cares! Anything can happen y'know ;)

Overall it was an amazing experience, and I hope I can start working and become a photography student. But, I'm J=just waiting for my sister to giver her 'other' friend a call, who also does photography. This is guy is more experienced than the one I went to tonight, but, whatever! Both are very talented. And my sister's photo was on DISPLAY. So purrtyy.

I wish I knew ya name, boy! Reoww bebe...

Labels: b

Day 6: 10 items you can’t live without

1. MOBILE
2. IPOD
3. DSLR CAMERA
4. SHOES
5. CLOTHES?! x)
6. MAKE UP
7. JEWELLERY
8. does FOOD count? :L
9. POPULAR BRAND BAGS!
10. MOISTURISER D:

I guess he's that one person who will always be in my heart. He's that person who I would like to keep for the rest of my life. He's that person who I will always love, and will never have the will or strength to move on from. He's that person who I will always remember making me feel special, and of believing in me when no one else was. He's that person who will always make me giddy and make me smile brightly and widely. He's that person who will always understand me, or try to at least. He's that person who I will always get along with. He's that person...he's that one person.

''A girl doesn't need to tell you straight up how she feels, it's written all over her eyes. If you can see how she feels without her telling you, then you definitely deserve her heart.''

Day 5: 10 wishes

1. Get good grades from now unti; year 12
2. Get a great mark for SC(+trials), ATAR and/or HSC
3. Be able to get a satisfying high-paid job (photographyy <3)>second chance with him!
6. A family with no disputes!!!
7. To get into university and to study hard and work hard
8. To hang out with him more out of school
9. To be at least 1.65cm!!
10. To get fit, and stay fit!!!

It's amazing what the effect of one person can do to you

-They can preoccupy your mind for days on end.
-They can make you smile like no tomorrow, cry like you’ve never cried before.
-Make you feel like the most loved person on the planet, or make you feel like you’ve been hit in the face with a fridge.
-They can convert your sadness into intense joy, or vice versa.

Just one person can do all of these things. It’s incredible.

Hmm..I don't know what gift I should buy for friend 1 and friend 2 - Something cute or something edible..? I don't know!! D: It's always hard to find a present for someone..but I have plenty of time to think about it. I'm going to buy the presents seperately, so that it doesn't seem like I'm splurging all my money in one go. I hope I can find something! -fingers crossed-

ANYWAYYYY...school's boring. Nothing interesting happens, apart from recess and lunch - I always share the best times with my awesome friends! Ahh good times.

Rock It - Little Red

Yaaaay, I found it!

You are selfish , immature and stubborn. I'm not a priority to you , I'm your option. So do me a favour and stop faking it 'cause I don't buy it. :) Stick your so called friendship up your ass. Anyways, let's see if you're smart enough to realise who you are....

Day 4: 10 things you want to say to one person

1. I love you, I hope you can understand that
2. Would you like to be more than just friends? Again?
3. You make me laugh
4. You always make my day a whole lot better whenever I talk to you and vice versa
5. I don't want to be shy around you...
6. You have a cute smile, don't ever lose it
7. Do you feel the same way I do, for you?
8. We should never keep in touch
9. No matter what happens, I can never stay angry at you for a long period of time
10. You make me happy, please stay in my life forever...

Day 3: 10 things you hate (I'd prefer to dislike)

1. Arguing
2. Untrustworthy people
3. People playing loud music in their cars to show off
4. Smelly feet
5. Being in the middle of something(fights in particular)
6. Assignments & exams...
7. Dark circles O.O'
8. Pimples
9. Thunder
10. Not having self-control for things.

Sooooo, apparently the next season of pretty little liars doesn't show on tv(abc family u.s.a) until next January! DAMN! I can't wait for that long...oh well. I just gotta suck it up.

At the moment, I'm watching the first season of keeping up with the kardashians on CH7 - I've seen it online already but I don't min watching it again because it's interesting!

Well short post, and I'll be blogging real soon - Goodnight!

From the outside someone would think I'm the perfect, intelligent, happy girl with heaps of friends and everything going for me. but in truth, despite everything I have never felt so alone. My problems with everything is constantly telling me this spirals me into a state of constant depression. I will never live up to anyone's expectations. the one boy that I love and always have, thinks I'm a joke. I cannot count the times I have contemplating suicide and escaping this shit. If you're close friend to me, you would instantly understand.

I'm feeling lonely, pissed, sad and stressed at the moment. Everything's fucked up. I don't know what to do anymore, it just want to get away from all these fucking consequences. What happened to my determination and motivation?

If only, if only I can go back in time and fix the mistakes and gave everything a chance. Because now, I think it's too late. I hope tonight's going to be good- gillawarna!

Day 2: 10 things you love

1. Family
2. Friends
3. Food
4. Photography
5. Singing
6. JAPAN & KOREA
7. Him? I don't know...
8. Sleeping
9. Having no fucking school
10. Hugs..

I know how it feels. I know how it feels to wake up every morning knowing that the person you love doesn't love you the same. I know how it feels to get all dressed up for the person you love only for them to walk straight past you. I know how it feels to get the guts to message the person you love only to get a one worded response. I know how it feels to try so hard and fail. I know how it feels to cry yourself to sleep because the one person you want doesn't want you in the same way. So if you ever feel alone, know that somebody out there is feeling the exact same feelings that you are girl, be strong.

I don't want to hate you. I don't want to be mad at you. I love you(I wish you knew).

The Pierces - Secret.

Day 1: 10 things about you

1. Weird
2. Indecisive
3. Self- Conscious
4. Vietnamese w/ a bit of Español
5. Lefty
6. Small Feet
7. Small hands
8. Trustworthy
9. Helpful
10. Skeptical!!!!

Yeah bebe, more challenges.

Day 1: 10 things about you
Day 2: 10 things you love
Day 3: 10 things you hate
Day 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
Day 5: 10 wishes
Day 6: 10 items you can’t live without
Day 7: 10 important people
Day 8: 10 of your favorite songs
Day 9: 10 ways to win your heart
Day 10: Final 10 words

All I want to do is excercise, so I can release all the anger within me...I'm just not feeling the vibe tonight. FUCK YOU. I just want to cry....cry like a FUCKING BABY. Fuck everything. I've never been so angry since last year. You are reluctant. Why did I waste all my time liking you....why the fuck am i acting like this again Crying ovr some fucking boy who won't fucking give a crap and CAN'T EVEN FUCKING REALISE THAT THE GIRL THAT'S WRITING THIS IS IN PAIN BECAUSE OF HIM. HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW I LIKE HIM. HOW FUCKING PATHETIC. I TOLD HIM ON THE PHONE BUT HE DIDN'T HEAR ME. YOU KNOW WHAT? FORGET ABOUT ME. I THOUGHT WE HAD A FUCKING CONNECTION. GUESS IT WAS TOO CLOSE TO CALL. GOD I SHOULD BE HAPPY WITH MY LIFE. I HAVE ONE OF THE MOST WONDERFUL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT I WOULDN'T WANT TO LOSE. BUT YOU! WHY IS IT ALWAYS YOU THAT FUCK IT UP. THAT'S WHY I DON'T LIKE GOING ON MSN TOO. IT'S FUCKING GAY AND ALSO, IT'S BECAUSE I'M AVOIDING YOU, BECAUSE I WOULDN'T KNOW WHAT TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT. I LOVE YOU, BUT WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT NOW? IT'S USELESS AND MEANINGLESS...

I really need to save up money for the upcoming holidays(OUTINGS)! I also need to buy a gift for that special someone and birthday presents for ___ _______ ♥. I hardly have any money in my wallet...SAD! I don't like asking for family for money, I feel so greedy - I'm eligible to work but I can't..unless my family and I sorts thing out straight away and it would definitely be stress-free.

Well, it's a sunday morning..and it's sunny! I love it, minus the crazy winds that's happening RIGHT NOW. I don't like it, especially when you're tryng to sleep and all you can hear is ghost-howling-like sounds from the fly screen, and hearing windows make rattling noises. But that wasn't quite it - Haha, I was also staying up to watch the 2 last episodes of 'Pretty Little Liars' (THANK YOU HELEN♥). It's soooo interesting! I seriously can't wait for season 2 oh my gaash! And also 'Keeping Up With The Kardashians' season 3 - DAYUMM! Pretty awesome shit, you reckon? I think so.

And....I won't be going to school for 3 days straight! Due to the 'Gillawarna Festival' that's starting tomorrow(well, the rehearsals tomorrow), and the next day and day after. Me and the rest of the choir group will be performing in the morning then later in the evening. We'll be performing 12 songs. I hardly remember a few off by heart. Great. I'm excited, though this is my 3rd time contributing in the festival..haha. The bad thing is, I'm going to be missing out on so many schoolwork crap, oh my word...oh well I can catch up!

'We go together like rama-lama-lama-ka-ding-a-da ding-a-dong!'

Natalie - Going Crazy

Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within No other man would ever make me feel so right
Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight

[Bridge]I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your ladyI've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you its been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you
I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true, no fronting
Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

[Bridge]I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your ladyI've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby
Ohhh, ohhh....
Crazy... lady..... lately....
Ohhh ohhh.....
Ohh ohhh ohhhhhh
Baby...

I can't cope with this anymore. Day by day, I'm finding it really hard to not be able to think logically in what I want to say to you. I want to be able to act normally around you at school, but just can't. And you know why I can't? There's too many people around us, goes to show that I won't be able to act like myself, and neither would you. I just want to tell you how I feel about you. It's diggin' my head in to the fact that I can't stand up for myself. I know I can do it, it's just that I'm not as confident as I am right now.

Damn it..

My last challenge!

Me, Lynda and Lousie ♥

Day 6 - Two things you want.

1. A happier and stronger family, always. We are, though little things that turns into something pointless(such as fighting about minor things)can easily ruin the whole lot. But that's alright, there's always resilience.
2. To get an excellent ATAR in year 12 and get into university, preferably a uni that's really good with photography(fine arts)!