I’ve been thinking about this lately. Do I mean anything to you? You always make it seem like we're something, when clearly I know we’re nothing. Stop the sweet talks, stop the actions, stop everything if you're not even sure what you want. I’m not strong nor am I smart enough to just walk away. Maybe this is nothing to you at all, but too me, it means alot.
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Aigoo, I don't know what's going on anymore, and the fact that school is just around the corner, I couldn't help but think about it so much. I'm so excited for what the teachers will be holding for us. Oh, the joy! Tell me, can you sense the sarcasm? I really need to put effort in what I do this time and stop slacking off like last year, though I did noticed that I was a whole lot better in year 10 then the other years; there was an improvement!

Anyway, I had an awesome time with Lynda, Lousie and Stephanie yesterday. It's good to know our parents trusted us to let us go to the city alone, although we did have a curfew, ahahah but that's okay. The girls and I would usually go to the same spots to hang out and all, but we had a talk that when we hit the city, we're going to go somewhere that's completely new to us!

Okay, I don't think anything above me made any sense...due to my inconsistent hours of sleep for the past weeks, yawn! I should probably to start to sleep earlier as this habit of me sleeping late could really effect my focus in school. It will start to kick in. Ouch.

SoOoOo.../300TH POST. WEEWT WEEW.

I WENT FOR MY FIRST DRIVE TONIGHT. AND IT WAS AWESOME.
 
Well, I sucked at first, but after two rounds, I was going fairly well! I was excited and nervous at the same time, but my sister reassured me that I'll be okay. I'm happy that I got the chance to have this opportunity. Thank you for teaching me chi hai!! Love you! I should practice with my dad too...hopefully he won't go BLEYHUDHFKJRHFK towards my mistakes haha, it should be fine.  Anyways, I can't wait to practice until I get the hang of it! I need to practice as much as I can so I can book for a driving lesson with an instructor. That is all for tonight. TEEHEE.

Sky Sailing - Brielle

CINDYY, you would love this...it's a calm and relaxing song :) Sounds like the same person from Owl City, eh? Heheh, I love it, and I'm hoping you would too.

I sat there for the longest time
after you were gone.
I thought about all the things we said,
and all the things we didn't say.
I wondered if you misunderstood,
'cause I'm not good when it comes to talking.
And I'm sorry, I didn't know the words
to make you stay.

Couldn't agree more,

It has always been hard for me. Letting go of it now would be the best option.

Flyleaf - All Around Me

I'm really crazy for thinking that you were actually different.

The moment when you realize someone who you thought would always be there.. isn't.

Seal - Kiss From A Rose

It's been so long since i've heard this song, and I absolutely love it!
"Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray."

Love is patient and kind, it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude or selfish, it does not take offence, nor is it resentful. Love takes no pleasure in others’ sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end. There are three things that last, faith, hope and love and the greatest of these is love.

But I think that maybe the thing that I did wrong was put up with his bullshit for far too long.

You can only push a girl away for so long until she can't take it anymore, she walks out of your life on her own, so be really careful, make sure this is what you really want because once her back is turned, she isn't coming back.

I used to constantly look for people to replace you. Someone to talk to everyday, someone to trust, someone to believe in, someone to love, someone to have the time of my life with. I stopped though. I learned some people really can’t be replaced.

I'm afraid of 17 out of 69 common fears.

Cross out the things you’re afraid of and put you’re score at the top.


the dark
staying single forever
being a parent
giving birth
being myself in front of others
open spaces
closed spaces
heights
dogs
birds
fish
spiders
flowers or other plants
being touched
fire
deep water
snakes
silk
the ocean
failure
success
thunder/lightning
frogs/toads
my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
boyfriends/girlfriends mom
rats
jumping from high places
snow
rain
wind
crossing hanging bridges
death
heaven
being robbed
falling
clowns
dolls
large crowds of people
men
women
having great responsibilities
doctors, including dentists
tornados
hurricanes
incurable diseases
sharks
friday the 13th
ghosts
poverty
halloween
school
trains
odd numbers
even numbers
being alone
becoming blind
becoming deaf
growing up
creepy noises in the night
bee stings
not accomplishing my dreams/goals
needles
blood
dinosaurs
the welcome mat
high speed
throwing up
falling in love
super secrets
If you repost this, it’s been requested that you title it “I’m afraid of _ out of 69 common fears”
If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.

Glee - True Colors

This song is pretty much stuck in my head right now. It's an absolutely beautiful song.
"If only I could see your true colors..."

True friends never put you down. You my friend, obviously have.

Confessions.

I don't think I'll ever fall in love. No, I'm serious. I've been hurt quite a few times already. I'm scared, but the thing is, I've got to take changes and if I'm not satisfied with the outcomes, I should cope with it and move the fuck on. It's not as if my whole life depends on "one" guy, I mean seriously, I got a whole life ahead of me. I have goals waiting to be achieved, a family I need to take care of, getting into university, getting a good job, etc etc. But...it would be really nice to have someone fill in that empty space in your heart. Someone..someone who will forever be your soulmate, your lover, your bestfriend, your everything...
I've always wanted to have a partner, but I guess I can't find them...they should suddenly appear out of the blue. It's not like i'm desperate or anything, don't get the wrong idea. Then again, who knows who's going to be my partner? I guess I'll just have to wait and see, but I'm so damn anxious to know right now. Oh well, let's see what the future holds for me...not just about this but for everything..

Words to live.

Strange Condition - Pete Yorn

And it's a strange conditon, a day in prison..

This.

Meiko - Reasons To Love You

So yeah..

I finally got my L's, woo!! Though my photo id looked fucked because you're not allowed to smile. I can't wait to go on my first drive, it's going to be awesome yet scary at the same time, ah!
Yeah, I'm overly ecstatic. Vroom vroom!

Be Ok - Ingrid Michaelson. I wanna be ok EVERYDAY :)

It's not easy as it seems.

Rachael Yamagata- Be Be Your Love

With all due respect...

My prayers goes to the Queensland residents that are currently suffering from the flash floodings. The torrential rainfall seems as though it'll never stop. So many people has lost their homes, with many left stranded on their rooftops. But what kills everyone too is the lost of lives from the floods. Like the news had said, this flood crisis brings back to 1974 in Queensland, where back then, the foods were devastating and had such an impact to everyone. But we're talking about now. The water level will soon reach up to 22 metres(according to the news). This is heartbreaking to me and everyone else that are have sympathy for the residents dealing with the flood.

There are people out there who are being so heartless and making immature facebook groups. I didn't realise it when my friend posted up about the disrepecfulness for the people. Grow up. You idiots have no respect whatsoever. You wouldn't be laughing if were to be caught up in this situation, would you? Have some consideration of others and be sympathetic. What if you have family up there? What if you don't? Either way they're still people, and we what we can we do? We give them support, not making up groups and being negative and hardhearted about it. Just shut the fuck up and grow a sense of maturity.

I wish I could donate money, but all I can do now is hope for the best that the rain will ease down and will not travel down south or anywhere else. I  wouldn't want any more floods happening. Low flooding is acceptable, but this, no. But, it's mother nature, what can we do? Actually we can do somethng...what if everything happens for a reason? Everything does happen for a reason. Then again, it would confuse others for why natural disasters like this happens.

The people that are dealing with floods should stay strong. And if you've lost your homes or loved ones, stay strong. My condolences goes out to each and every one of them. I have close relatives that lives in Brisbane...I hope they're okay. I hope everyone is.

Cont. from previous post

                                                  GIANT GREEN TEA POCKY. YUM.

Welcome back, Sis!! :D

So today my sister came back from her trip! Her luggage was filled with so many things, hehe. She even bought lollies from Japan...omnomnom :3 she bought a whole lot of stuffs especially from Japan. She's still waiting for more to be shipped from there hahaha! I won't type anything else she bought...there's too many to name!

She also got me a birthday present for me. I was unsure...until she gave me a sony bag with a CAMERA in it she bought from Japan!! Omg I love it!! It's a touch screen and waterproof too. I think it was about $200 something. Apparently the camera my sis bought for me hasn't even arrived in Australia yet. Could I be the first? Haha. It's really nice, slim and very lightweight too! She even got it engraved with designs and with a text "Happy birthday Kim!". Aww! The camera has so many functions, there's a setting where it could make photos look really good! Thank goodness for that! It even has panoramic mode(for those who don't know, you move the camer from left to right to make an extended shot, -dies- it's amazing. My sister is so sweet and freaking awesome. I love her, not only for this, but for everything she has done!!!

After looking at my sister's photos from Japan, I honestly can't wait to go now...it's going to be awesome!!!!The food, culture, local people, scenery, etc!
Sleeptime, woo~
Goodnight all!

Here are a few photos of my new camera:

BEX'S 16TH!!!

I love hot weathers, but not this hot!

Whenever the weather's like this, I'd usually end up sleeping....!! Not cool mun. I am going to work out my stomach later and disgustfekrcjwion4urbi5ing legs :3 And farhhh, a few things going on that includes money, and I have no NO MORE MONEY ANYMORE. AND I'M NOT GOING TO SPEND ANYMOREEEEEE :( I wish I had a job. I'd probably have to not go to one, or even better and equal, not go to any! :\

Bye......!

Mr right arm is elbow is so numb right now...accidentally banged it on becky's desk while dancing ROFL, well, that's my fault !!! Ahh, hopefully it'll get better today...woo is saturday. I fckn love the weekends :)

BECKY'S BIRTHDAY DINNER AS GREATTTTTT!!! THE FOOD WAS DELICIOUS. DANCING AT BEC'S WAS COOOOL. =D Awesome night, hope to see all the them before school starts!!! I will publish photos later today...can't be bothered now...it's 12 something!!

Just finished watching Wolf Creek, i've got to admit, it's by far the worst australian movie script ever, though it was a bit scary (that's it), but no, the storyling was shit. I've seen it countless times when i was young, but now when I've seen it properyl and I understans the whole situation, it's kind of crap, haha oh well, it's OK.

I am now watching yet another gruesome movie by myself..called Freddy vs. Jason. Both Frreddy Kruger and Jason are freaking scary...

Sorry if any of these doesn't make sense...it's late and I'm a bit bored...
Goodnught.

Jack Johnson - Traffic in the Sky

This song helps stop my worries about anything, anywhere...

A short trip....to Parramatta!

So this afternoon, I went to parra with my cuz. We caught the bus there.  I finally got my friend's birthday present! I also got something for myself :) I need to more!!! Diana got herself some short shorts haha. Soo many things were on sale! After shopping, she took me to a restaurant outside parra called TOSCANI'S, Italian I think. I ordered a caesar salad, it was yum! Diana orderd the Luigi burger or something haha. Her one was yum too. I'm still feeling bloated from my food! I need to work it out~ After having a late lunch, we went to train it back to yagoona so her mumma can pick us up, i ended staying at her house for 2-3 hours just to hang out! And yeah, that's it.

This will be my last post for the day!

 I didn't do the compter test for my L's today. Was supposed to, but my sister didn't fill out the details properly for the booking today, so I will do it next tuesday!!! I will practice moreee :)

Y THO?

On NYE!

Happy New Year!

Had a good time with family, family friends and best friends! When we arrived at our spot to watch the fireworks as darling harbour, we asked our mums if we could split and go and hang out. Lynda, Lousie, Stephanie and myself headed to Capitols. We tookk caps first, then later headed to the ground level of Capitols. We ate Yumei Famous Restaurant - Not bad I guess! We ordered Tempura, Udon Noodles, Waguy beef on skewers and Gyoza. And Steph and I couldn't stop staring at the waiter that served us. DAMN, he was cute.

After having our savoury dishes, we walked across to Passion Flower! I finally spent a good time with my girls. We orderd the Mission Impossible,  with 13 scoops of our choice, HEAVEN! My brother sooned arrived with Michael(Lynda's brother). When it had arrived, we looked at the ice-cream in awe! First, we drizzled the passionfruit, strawberry and chocolate sauce onto the ice-cream, THEN, we slowly/quickly devoured ourselves with the ice-cream, bloody Michael ate all of the Durian ice-cream without even us noticing it. Oh well, I didn't favour Durian that much.not sure about the others! After almost demolishing our ice-cream feast, we started taking ice-cream shots! It was fun! Though it looked horrible, but tasted great. Lynda and I had brain freezes while sculling it down as fast as we could. My brain freeze moment soon died out and I started taking shots with Steph!!! Hawhahwhaw. AND I JUST TO THANK LYNDA AND STEPH FOR SHOUTING ME, OMG. TOLD YOU GUYS NOT TO SHOUT FOR ME EUH4Y4RU45. LOVE YOU!

Then of course, we watched the family fireworks together!!! We soon had to split with lousie and her parents because they went to go watch it on the harbourside. We could've went with them but we had too much to carry, and our mums were too tired. It's okay! When the clocked striked at 12, BAM! SHABOOM! SNAP! CRACKLE! POP! Fireworks were everywhere. I couldn't asked for a better night with these wonderful people..but I would've loved it if had someone with me, a new years kiss...AHEM, you're out line, Kim.

Well, it's finally 2011, isn't? I pray for this year to be filled with many laughters and happier memories to be created. I hope the close friends I have, will always remain close to me. I shouldn't fret on anything that isn't too much of big impact to me. But one things for sure..I hope to change my bad habits of sloppiness. School is in 3 weeks and I need to do something productive. How about read a book? Or solve maths problems? I will get to it, I will force myself even if it takes time. It's time for a change, a change of positive thoughts...change of self. And by change of self I will try to find somewhere in me to stop being so down because of one guy not liking me and such. That's so sad of me! I will also try to stop being so argumentative to beautiful family, and of course I feel bad if I don't act accordingly. Again, happy new year everyone, and may this year bring each and every one of you many happiness and excellent expectations(towards your studies and whatever gives peace and joy). Live it as if it were your last!

Oh! And guess what guys? My sister has booked my driving test on January 6th! I will keep on practicing until that day has come!! I'm hyped up for the test. Let's see what 2011 holds for us and what not!!
Love ♥