Well, I'm letting the hot wax to cool down at the moment...don't want to burn my skin do I? Haha.

 

Girl: Is it me or her?

Guy: If you love me you wouldn't make me do this.

Girl: But if you love me there wouldn't be another option.

♥

I'm scared to lose you when you're not even mine to lose..
:(

The weather today is the weather I wouldn't mind on the day of our formal. It gives a sense of coolness, with no heat.
 Well...a little bit of sunshine would be great too.

 :)

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i Am sOo boR3dD.
 Anyone care to entertain moi ?
AND FORMAL IS THIS WEDNESDAY!
CAN'T WAIT!!

Going to hit the gym tomorrow with my sister to tone up, and also, to release some stress within me.

I may look calm, but, it's more than meets the eye.

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Yeah, I can honestly say that you didn't sound apologetic. Was it a way to make me have empathy for you? Was it?
Don't fool me. Ever.

- -

It’s sort of like we’re more than friends, but less than lovers.
:)

ARGH...
What were you thinking?! Everything was going according to plan. Damn it. But that's okay because him and I sorted it it out. We are very close and I'm thankful for that. Are you happy?

And you, seems like you'll never get over me right? You will. I know you can't force yourself. but, eventually, it'll fade. And yes, I'm so sure because I wouldn't want to be thinking about you - No, I don't see you in that way. To me, him and I are fine. If there was an issue, we' would solve it instantly. But you, you don't have that confidence yet. You want things to be your way. If someone doesn't return the love to you, you have to understand that. I've been through something like that before, and I survived! So, why can't you? To be honest, you need to man up. If you understand me, you would let me live a life with no worries.

The thing you hate about yourself tends to be the thing that everyone likes about you.
- Nicole Kidman♥

No wonder l o v e is so difficult,
 I’m still c l u m s y.

'' Act like a lady, think like a man.♥ ''

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And this is where boredom takes me...

The reason why I didn't tell him my feelings for him was because I was scared that after I tell him, everything will change. I didn't want to tell him because it might've ruined our friendship, even he said he wouldn't care if I liked him(this was when I asked him if he'd say or do anything about it) and I care more of our friendship then being like an acquaintance(by this, I meant when him and I weren't as close as now) to each other. I would've hated that. There'll always be a aprt of me where my heart will always warm up whenever he looks at me, talks to me and smiles at me, well, when we talk,haha but who knows, eh?

Though, I don't think he feels the same way like I do for him. I know I'm seem pretty sceptic about it, but I can't help myself.

Be strong now because things will get better,

 it may be stormy now but it can't rain forever.

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Words can't explain how sweet you are. You are a very a down-to-earth person, which I absolutely adore. You have a loving heart.

Hmm..I can't contemplate on whether or not I should tell you that like/liked you(the feeling's neutral at the moment, damn). I'm scared that if those words come out of my mouth, we'd probably have a distant friendship, but the thing is, I really don't know. I have no clue what to say to you. I hate how things never turn out right the way I setted out in my mind. I'd always screw up.

My thoughts, and feelings towards you is pretty bizarre.
 I really like you, but I also don't want to hurt you. For the past days, I couldn't think straight, nor have I had a decent sleep. It's pretty much affecting my life.
I'm sorry...I'm sorry that I like you. I can't decide if I should get over it...

I know you'll never read this, but I just want to let you know that I find you amazing. Why? Because you care a lot about things, things that are important. You are someone that has a pretty awesome personality.
You are someone that I can talk to, without feeling uncomfortable.I love that.

But the thing is, whenever I'm with you, my spirits lifts up. You make me happy. You make me feel whole.
You are so supportive. I didn't not fall for your looks, though you are pretty cute, I've got to admit :)

I fell for your personality, your looks was just a bonus, hehe.
 Our friendship grew when we'd always talk to each other in the morning. I guess it's the best way to communicate to each other and be alone right? And when there's a time where I don't even talk to you or vice versa, I'd feel pretty empty.
And your smile is gorgeous. So, keep on smiling, it makes me happy and makes my day.

I hope something does happen between you and I. Well if you're not ready yet, I guess there's always next time..?
The thing is, I don't know if you're the right one for me, but who cares:
''I'll be waiting for you.''
Man, I'm so lame.
♥

There are even times when I think about giving up.
 But I won’t. The beginning is always the hardest part.
Each passing day is just another day closer to the next time we’ll see each other :)

This song makes me feel happy.

~

We may only have tonight

But till the morning sun you're mine all mine

Play the music low

And sway to the rhythm of love

It's hard to determine whether

you really have feelings for someone

or you are just carried away by

the good things he does.

Which is why you cannot say if

you are just returning the l o v e

or returning the f a v o u r. 

IS THIS A MIRACLE OR WHAAAAT?!

THIS STUFF ACTUALLY WORKS!! MY SIS, HER BF, MY BRO AND MYSELF JUST TRIED IT AND IT WORKED LIKE A CHARM! IF YOU HAVE BLACKHEADS OR WHATEVER(lol), THIS IS RECOMMENDED FOR YOU :)

WARNING: Michelle Phan didn't mention this in her video, BUT just letting you guys know that if you're willing to try this tutorial, WATCH OUT FOR THE FUNKY SMELL - IT'S HORRIBLE.

Ah, my nose feels so smoooooooooth.

AND, pools today was alright. A lot of people came today - IT WAS HOOOOOT! And it's going to be HOT again tomorrow! Jen, Kat and myself couldn't actually do proper laps because half of the lanes outdoors were used for swimming programs,....OH WELL! NEXT TUESDAY..hopefully.

- - -

My head's spinning..with all this confusion, I've had lost hope, for everything.
I CREY.
 

Never regret. If it's good, it's wonderful. If it's bad, it's experience.

At the end of the day, you can either focus on what's tearing you apart, or what's holding you together.

- - -

People I know needs to be happy. I hate seeing people in so much pain. Even though I'm not suffering as bad as they are, it kills me inside to see people, who don't deserve it, distraught.
♥

Don't try and perfect yourself for one person.
Wait for the one that loves your imperfections.

I used to think I needed you in my life. I used to think you were the

only one who could make me happy, but I was wrong. I was so wrapped up

in you that I almost forgot - I survived without you, and I still can.

It’s just a matter of getting used to the idea.

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Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good

advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to

hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without

forgiveness, old scores are never settled; old wounds never heal. And

the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget.

On a friday night?! Yeah. Supposedly I should relax and all, but you know what? I'm not going to bother with that! I'm going to spend my arse studying for the upcoming School Certificate - YES! IT BEGINS IN 3 MORE DAYS. Am I freaking out? No, not at all. I mean, what's the point in stressing out? I'm obviously going to strain yourself, and before I know it, I'm screwed. That's why I'm just going to take it easy and study the things I'm not that confident with.

GOOD LUCK TO ALL YEAR 10'S FOR NEXT WEEK'S SCHOOL CERTIFICATE. STUDY HARD, THEN PARTY HARDER.

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''Upcoming events'':

8/11 - 10/11 - SC STARTS and ENDS
18/11-19/11 - PEER SUPPORT TRAINING
25/11 - YEAR 10 STUDY SKILLS DAY(?)

 1/12 - YEAR 10 FORMAL AT WATERVIEW, BICENTENNIAL PARK
10/12 - YEAR 10 PRESENTATION DAY - DOES Y10 FINISH ON THAT SAY TOO? Who knows.


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woahh...year 11 next year - F@#!

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.

Watch your words, for they become actions.

Watch your actions, for they become habits.

Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny!”

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To expect anything from you was a mistake, you’d always let me down, cause that’s your way of telling me you can’t be bothered anymore.