From the outside someone would think I'm the perfect, intelligent, happy girl with heaps of friends and everything going for me. but in truth, despite everything I have never felt so alone. My problems with everything is constantly telling me this spirals me into a state of constant depression. I will never live up to anyone's expectations. the one boy that I love and always have, thinks I'm a joke. I cannot count the times I have contemplating suicide and escaping this shit. If you're close friend to me, you would instantly understand.