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I had a dream...
Sunday, August 15, 2010 @ 7:52 AM |
comment (0) I had a dream that you and I had D&M conversation. It was about you confessing how much you broke my heart, and how you made me sad. You felt really guilty, which made me sad too. I seriously thought that I was going to burst out in tears in my dreams, but I was fine. But in my dream, you called me 'sweety'. I remember the time when you would always call me that. It hurts me sometimes how we're not as opened as other people. They would go up to the person they used to love and confessed to them. Why can't I do it? I know I can, it' just that, there are things that are holding me back from doing it. But the one thing that really concerns me is you, not having the same feeling back for me...I would have positive thoughts about you, but then comes the negative thoughts. I really hate thinking what can happen to me if you didn't love me back. I just wish you can read my blog, but you won't be able to see it anyway, since I didn't put the links anywhere. But this is what a blog is for. To let all your feelings of sorrow, love, hatred, happiness and so on. And this is where I write things about you, ________ . You know, I hated that time when you broke up with me, you said that I can 'find someone better than me.' You didn't know how much it fucking hurts when you said those words. It's heartbreaking, you know!! And me, reminscising those hurtful times, makes me want to cry even more...and yes, you probably realised that early last year, I was down, and people thought that I was depressed - YES I WAS DEPRESSED, I WAS SO DOWN, I COULDN'T EVEN PUT A SMILE ON MY FACE. I HAD TO ANNOY PEOPLE WITH MY COMPLAINTS OF HOW MUCH YOU HURT ME, AND WHAT YOU DID TO ME. But, I forgave you.... Because you know why? You were my first true love. Out of all three, you were the best one. You understand me, you were always there for me. You would never try to hurt me, you would always figure out a way to make me laugh and smile. You have a good sense of humour. And when I was with you, I felt to protected and felt like the luckiest girl in the world. I don't know what went wrong, but I would love to fix it up and go for another try to be with you, but only you're willing to do the same thing. You have to follow your heart. Sure, there's plenty of guys out there for me - No, you make me feel complete, and I just want to be with you, and, only you.. And I know, it has been a year since you've broke up with me, and it's been two years since I loved you, but I don't care because I can't get over you! I love you with all my heart, and always will. Kim x. |
