I WANT and NEED to change my lifestyle around. I've been slacking off way too much. It's time for me to make myself change. I WANT to be bothered studying for exams. I want to focus on school work. I WANT to work independently and stop depending on others. I WANT to be and feel confident in all areas of my studies and work. I WANT to achieve desired marks that would make my family so proud of me. I WANT to prove them that I can be their daughter that takes her work seriously. I WANT to stop worrying about boys and WORRY about things that are my number one priorites..which is of course, workiing hard to the best of my ability! I WANT and NEED to make it into the University I want to, and that's UTS. If not, there's USYD, which is in Balmain(for Fine Arts). I NEED to be more happier and to stop being closed behind doors. If I'm not happy, then, what the hell am I doing living? Exactly. I WANT to become an aspiring photographer. Many of you already know that this is my dream, and I'm going to make it come true. If I believe in what I love to do, I can do it. And SO CAN YOU! ' Dreams comes in cans, not can'ts '. This was quoted by Michelle Phan - A make up guru. She's an insipiration to me. Not only because of what she loves doing, but she takes her hard work to the next step . She's always confident in what she's doing. I look up to her.I NEED to forget about the past and stop worrying about it. There would be times where I would bring it up again, only to certain people that I feel comfortable talking about it to. Like my best and close friends. I know they would never judge me. I'm so thankful that I've met some people that are keepers. I NEED to be more honest. Lying is stupid and pointless.  I used to lie where I'm going - how stupid was I? But if it's something VERY serious, those things should be unsaid...sometimes. I wish lying never existed. I WANT and NEED to make a change; and that will happen. I will prove it to you all.

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Year 10 Graduation today. Yay to us. I hope I get a decent mark for the School Certificate. I put all my effort in it. I hope it's not too disappointing. -Fingers and arms crossed-

I think I'm going to cry because there are some people in my year that aren't coming back...how fucking depressing. I think I am going to ball my eyes out. Fuck...

Goodbye junior high, hello senior high!