I'm having second thoughts...

Why would I have positive and negative thoughts about you?!? I always say I miss you and all(nor direct or indirect, just on blogs like this) but , I just don't think you're worth it anymore. I always get jealous, I don't know why. I just want you to all myself. Yes, that may seem selfish but you don't know how it will take for a girl to forget everything that she had shared with you! I wish you could tell me straight up how you think of me and what feelings you have of me, or vice versa. I can't do this, let alone complaining about it to myself everytime. I always have doubtful thought that you don't even like me, and I think those doubtful thoughts are coming true. By thinking of this, it lowers my confidence in talking to you, and I hate how things are at the moment. It just sickens me. I wish I was never into boys until I reached university, but I guess this is a lesson learnt to everyone who've dated in their younger years - And I guess that it's just a preparation for us.

ARGGHH, I can't take it anymore, someone shoot me, please.
FUCK YOU HORMONES, FUCK YOU.

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